The dream amphora

At the crack of dawn, when I rise,

Parting with the night gone by,

And the sun gleaming through the window,

I push myself out of the bed,

And head to draw the blinds away,

To feel the morning air,

To gain that vitality ,

With a day ahead to pace,

And dreams to chase.

Each morning is a new day,

And special in it’s own way.

A fair shake to do something momentous,

And cast a dream into the amphora. 

What is it about the dream?

Should you speculate!

Sometimes it’s about bringing repose

To a agitated soul.

And should that dream seem afar ,

But not impassable ;

I cast it into the dream amphora.

Sometimes it’s about the fear ,

Of losing all that is dear ;

Thoughts of dismay, 

But not invincible.

And most certain to vanquish one day.

I cast it into the dream amphora

Sometimes it’s about love

Tender feeling that bolsters ,

To grow out of all that hurts,

Dusting off all the hate;

Though it seems a long shot

But not fake ;

To sense it someday,

I cast it to the dream amphora.

Sometimes it’s about peace,

About a distant place of tranquil,

Where regrets cease,

But still seems mythical,

To make it real,

I cast it into the dream amphora. .

Sometimes it’s  about God ,

And His Invisible Hand,

Convinced that He shall never let me down,

To nurture my faith,

I cast it into the dream amphora.

Every night when I crawl in,

And shut my eyes to dream, 

It’s about some virtue held close to my bosom,

And seemed to be a delusion,

But a certainty too.

So I just kept adding dreams to the dream amphora,

Now o’er the years its repleted;

But there’s room for more,

As some I have realized,

And they are out of the dream amphora.

Unrealized ones still remain

For they will come true someday,

Assured that I am,

It’s just need to keep up with dignity.

And dream my way into eternity.

The bequest of joy….. 

“One is happy as a result of ones own efforts, once he knows the necessary ingredients of happiness – simple tastes, a certain degree of courage , self-denial to a point, love of work and above a clear conscience.Happiness is no vague dream of that I now feel certain ”-George Sand 

We all keep going in circles to the day we realize that all we were doing was putting away inner peace. We all wait for something to happen to us to make us happy, But in vain. All we have to do is look within us. The journey of self discovery is wonderful, it is then we debar ourselves of the opinions about what we should be and what we should not be. Our life is a creative process and to keep it going we need to replenish it with happiness. Thinking on my feet , I felt that happiness is ephemeral, fleeting and dependent on external stimulants like acceptance. Many of us get caught in a vicious cycle of thinking that we can be happy only if we gain acceptance from others leading us to self -depreciation and hopelessness. We need to believe our life is ours , one of its kind and marvellous. Being genuinely happy starts with the thought we are both the source and cause. We never get to experience our thoughts about the world as it really is , we only get to experience our thoughts about the world Happiness will be ours when we stop chasing and start choosing. Happiness is not a matter of intensity but of balance and order and rhythm and harmony.So lets bring in that balance into our lives and keep passing the bequest of joy. 

Barry Blanchard puts it as, “I have found I could see better once I figured out how to remove the obstacles in front of me . Strange thing about this is that those obstacles were not in front of me they were inside me. Was this the result of some magicians trick?. Nope, it was just me learning to take responsibility for the darker parts in my heart . What’s my secret ? I just stopped being somebody else. I stopped being right . I stopped hiding behind a facade. I started becoming me….because I’m rare gem just like you.”​

Dowloading the happiness app…. 

Life was surfing through the hardknocks. I happened to type ‘solutions’. But the ‘solutions’ file wouldn’t run and the error message read’Not enough memory to complete this operation. Quit one or more application to increase the available memory, and then try again. I ran a scan, checking for viruses, malware and adware. And look what I found ! Worry, fear, doubt, regret, blame and competition all eating into my memory. Deleted it without a second thought. Gave a re-start  and allowed changes to take effect. Now a new program ‘happiness’  was in place. Life is just about happiness rooted in optimism. 

Jack Cantfield states, “Everything you want is on the other side of fear.” 

Fears and worries are good as long as they keep you away from imminent pitfalls but beyond that they just get in the way of leading a normal  and contended life. I personally feared and worried about being hurt and humiliated.In order to save myself, I denied everything that life had to offer  with passion, excitement and acceptance.  I cast doubts on my ability to love and create. It’s only when I looked the other way from these demons,  I found the real me.People are going to judge us. They are going to be critical both ways. Some think it’s their business and there are some who don’t have better occupation. Sometimes criticisms are disguised compliments announced by the ones who cannot handle your arrival.Take it in your  stride and fill your soul with peace and hope. Life is magnificent and beautiful. Pierce the bubble of anxiety and misery. If you are finding it difficult to do it but want to get out of it,  try confiding in a genuine friend.  Reassurances from a being are great morale boosters. Stay present, though it may seem crooked and strange but you are sure to hit the goal post.

“We live in a culture that has for centuries now,cultivated the idea that skeptical person is always smarter than one who believes. You can almost be as stupid as a cabbage as long as you doubt” Dallas Wilard. 

Now being as stupid as a cabbage is unacceptable to me and true for most of us. Doubting self pulls you away from trying. You will never know what you are capable of , once doubt grabs you. Counter it before it drives you against the wall.You can befriend your doubts and make it a tool to serve you. Know from where they originate,analyse it,  put it through a test and make it a motivating force. 

Regrets are things of the past. They have lessons and that is where the buck should stop. It should never be allowed to get in the way of our present, that has the power to shape our future. Libba Bray sums it up beautifully, “We all do things we desperately we could undo. Those regrets just become a part of who we are along with everything else, to spend time trying to change that, well it’s chasing clouds.” 

We consider ourselves as flawless or less likely to falter.One fine day,the truth is bare that we are just normal beings much vulnerable than we thought,the little things withheld tumble out of closet. We are not ready for it. We choose to blame to make ourselves feel better. It gives us momentary solace of being right and finding comfortable ground. 

These days we are on social site,  interacting and sharing thoughts. But sometimes your colleagues indulge in chest thumping activities. You start feeling like a looser.  It cuts you off from the  joy of your journey of life.Competing is fine as long as you meet lovely people  and worthy companions to help growth inside out. Competing is making life glorious where ever you stand.Rumi says,” Take someone who doesn’t keep score, who’s not looking  to be richer or afraid of losing, who has not the slightest interest ever in his own personality:he’s free. ”

Just play the hand you are dealt and play it well ,putting aside fears, worries, regrets, blame and competition.