Today, As I sat by myself to unwind for a while,
And sauntered through the memory aisle,
A glimpse of all that I went through crossed my mind.
Evenly dispersed all that I perfected,
And lot that remains to be effected.
It hauled that aimless wonder ,
About what life was about ?
And likewise the upheavaled state.
It fired up the experiences ,
That I have been through ;
And the amazement that I
weathered it too.
It beckoned me to the those times of trials,
And that they tendered the best in me.
It evoked the thoughts of making life
day by day,
And those re-courses to make it happen.
It brought in those fears of life being brief
And unexpected at that,
Yet trying not to be cobbled
And facing it with fortitude.
Eventually , to discover that life
And the need to re-call to make it inspiring.
And to show the gratitude,
For what it had to offer.
Life was surfing through the hardknocks. I happened to type ‘solutions’. But the ‘solutions’ file wouldn’t run and the error message read’Not enough memory to complete this operation. Quit one or more application to increase the available memory, and then try again. I ran a scan, checking for viruses, malware and adware. And look what I found ! Worry, fear, doubt, regret, blame and competition all eating into my memory. Deleted it without a second thought. Gave a re-start and allowed changes to take effect. Now a new program ‘happiness’ was in place. Life is just about happiness rooted in optimism.
Jack Cantfield states, “Everything you want is on the other side of fear.”
Fears and worries are good as long as they keep you away from imminent pitfalls but beyond that they just get in the way of leading a normal and contended life. I personally feared and worried about being hurt and humiliated.In order to save myself, I denied everything that life had to offer with passion, excitement and acceptance. I cast doubts on my ability to love and create. It’s only when I looked the other way from these demons, I found the real me.People are going to judge us. They are going to be critical both ways. Some think it’s their business and there are some who don’t have better occupation. Sometimes criticisms are disguised compliments announced by the ones who cannot handle your arrival.Take it in your stride and fill your soul with peace and hope. Life is magnificent and beautiful. Pierce the bubble of anxiety and misery. If you are finding it difficult to do it but want to get out of it, try confiding in a genuine friend. Reassurances from a being are great morale boosters. Stay present, though it may seem crooked and strange but you are sure to hit the goal post.
“We live in a culture that has for centuries now,cultivated the idea that skeptical person is always smarter than one who believes. You can almost be as stupid as a cabbage as long as you doubt” Dallas Wilard.
Now being as stupid as a cabbage is unacceptable to me and true for most of us. Doubting self pulls you away from trying. You will never know what you are capable of , once doubt grabs you. Counter it before it drives you against the wall.You can befriend your doubts and make it a tool to serve you. Know from where they originate,analyse it, put it through a test and make it a motivating force.
Regrets are things of the past. They have lessons and that is where the buck should stop. It should never be allowed to get in the way of our present, that has the power to shape our future. Libba Bray sums it up beautifully, “We all do things we desperately we could undo. Those regrets just become a part of who we are along with everything else, to spend time trying to change that, well it’s chasing clouds.”
We consider ourselves as flawless or less likely to falter.One fine day,the truth is bare that we are just normal beings much vulnerable than we thought,the little things withheld tumble out of closet. We are not ready for it. We choose to blame to make ourselves feel better. It gives us momentary solace of being right and finding comfortable ground.
These days we are on social site, interacting and sharing thoughts. But sometimes your colleagues indulge in chest thumping activities. You start feeling like a looser. It cuts you off from the joy of your journey of life.Competing is fine as long as you meet lovely people and worthy companions to help growth inside out. Competing is making life glorious where ever you stand.Rumi says,” Take someone who doesn’t keep score, who’s not looking to be richer or afraid of losing, who has not the slightest interest ever in his own personality:he’s free. ”
Just play the hand you are dealt and play it well ,putting aside fears, worries, regrets, blame and competition.